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/emo/ Miss Eri in Manehattan, chp 3

By NHanon
Created: 2020-10-23 18:50:35
Expiry: Never
dark/emo/miss erideep restconnie amore

  1. 1.
    >Yesterday was probably one of the best days you’ve had in a very long time.
  2. 2.
    >You lay in bed for a little bit to think.
  3. 3.
    >As long as you go out with your friends, things can be fun.
  4. 4.
    >’Do you honestly believe they can do this all the time?’
  5. 5.
    >Of course not, I’m not dumb.
  6. 6.
    >’Really? It took both Connie AND Rest to get you out of the house.’
  7. 7.
    >That’s different.
  8. 8.
    >’No it isn’t, had they not pushed, you would’ve stayed inside.’
  9. 9.
    >Yeah, you’re right about that.
  10. 10.
    >’When this is all over, things will go back to the same routine, you can never escape that.’
  11. 11.
    “That’s not true.”
  12. 12.
    >’Don’t fucking lie to yourself Eri, it’s sad.’
  13. 13.
    >You pull a pillow over your head and groan into it.
  14. 14.
    >’Can’t ignore this forever, you will see.’
  15. 15.
    “Fuck this.”
  16. 16.
    >Tossing the pillow aside, you get up and leave the bedroom.
  17. 17.
    >As you go out into the hallway, you nearly slip on the socks you’re wearing.
  18. 18.
    >Forgot about those, you put them on to hide the bandages last night.
  19. 19.
    >Carefully, you continue to the source of the heavenly aroma.
  20. 20.
    >Of course Connie is cooking again.
  21. 21.
    “That smells wonderful.”
  22. 22.
    >Connie turns to you with a small smirk.
  23. 23.
    >>”I’m certain it does, it’s french toast with a side of hay bacon.”
  24. 24.
    >Not like your stomach is going to argue with that.
  25. 25.
    >Joining Rest at the table, you see she is half finished.
  26. 26.
    >”Nice socks.”
  27. 27.
    >You stumble out an excuse.
  28. 28.
    “T-thanks, my hooves were a little cold last night.”
  29. 29.
    >>”Told you it can get cold at night here.”
  30. 30.
    >Rolling your eyes, you reply back.
  31. 31.
    “And that’s why I packed socks and hoodies.”
  32. 32.
    >You start to eat and let out a small moan of satisfaction.
  33. 33.
    >Hearing a giggle you see Rest looking at you with a smile.
  34. 34.
    >”Yeah, it is good isn’t it?”
  35. 35.
    >Nodding, you rather not speak right now, just enjoy the food.
  36. 36.
    >As you continue to eat, Connie joins you both.
  37. 37.
    >>”So, after I’m done practicing, where would you two like to go next?”
  38. 38.
    >”You mentioned the museum, how about there?”
  39. 39.
     
  40. 40.
    >Before they can ask you like yesterday, you just agree.
  41. 41.
    “Sounds good.”
  42. 42.
    >>”Great, we can even get a tour as well. I haven’t been there in a while, but it’s a lovely place. I’m certain you two will like it.”
  43. 43.
    >You nod along and finish eating.
  44. 44.
    >Figuring you should go wash up, you head back to the bedroom.
  45. 45.
    “I’ll go prepare then.”
  46. 46.
    >Connie nods and the two of them start to chat as you reach the bedroom.
  47. 47.
    >You look through your clothes and just settle on wearing the same hoodie again.
  48. 48.
    >No point in changing into something else, though the socks gotta go.
  49. 49.
    >You set them aside for now.
  50. 50.
    >Though as you turn to go to the bathroom, you run into Rest.
  51. 51.
    >”Hey there.”
  52. 52.
    >You freeze, thankfully the bandages are covered by the clothes you’re holding, but that doesn’t stop the fear.
  53. 53.
    “H-hey.”
  54. 54.
    >She looks concerned.
  55. 55.
    >”Just checking on you, wanna make sure you’re alright.”
  56. 56.
    >Of course.
  57. 57.
    >’Why wouldn’t she? You cause her enough concern.’
  58. 58.
    “Yeah I’m fine, looking forward to seeing the museum.”
  59. 59.
    >She smiles and gets a little closer making you feel more nervous.
  60. 60.
    >”I’m happy to hear that, but don’t forget that you can open up to either of us.”
  61. 61.
    >Rest gives you a small hug, one you eagerly return.
  62. 62.
    >’You’re so desperate it’s pathetic.’
  63. 63.
    >Let me have this dammit.
  64. 64.
    >She pulls away, and gives a soft smile.
  65. 65.
    >You give a smile in return and head into the bathroom.
  66. 66.
    >As the tub slowly fills, you check on your cut from yesterday.
  67. 67.
    >Looks better, but that doesn’t mean much.
  68. 68.
    >’So how long do you think you will hold out Eri?’
  69. 69.
    “As long as I can.”
  70. 70.
    >’You know Rest really isn’t your friend, right?’
  71. 71.
    >Your anger starts to rise.
  72. 72.
    “Just fuck off.”
  73. 73.
    >’Touched a nerve? She sees you as a pet project you know.’
  74. 74.
    “T-that’s not true.”
  75. 75.
    >’Face it, when you’re fully ‘healed’ she will leave you.’
  76. 76.
    >Gritting your teeth and squeezing your eyes tightly you try to silence the thoughts.
  77. 77.
    “Leave me alone...Please...”
  78. 78.
     
  79. 79.
    >The sound of the filling tub is the only noise you hear.
  80. 80.
    >Opening your eyes slowly, let out a slow sigh of relief.
  81. 81.
    “Have to stop doing that.”
  82. 82.
    >Turning off the facet, you climb into the tub and try to relax.
  83. 83.
    >However, your thoughts start to wander again.
  84. 84.
    >How long will you actually hold out?
  85. 85.
    >It’s not like you want to die, right?
  86. 86.
    >…
  87. 87.
    >Maybe dying isn’t so bad...
  88. 88.
    >Shaking your head, you quickly clean up rather than deal with this shit.
  89. 89.
    >Though you hurry, it doesn’t hide the fact that you thought of that.
  90. 90.
    “W-why can’t I just be normal? Seriously, is it that fucking hard?”
  91. 91.
    >Silence.
  92. 92.
    >Letting out a groan, you should know better by now.
  93. 93.
    >Just as you’re about to leave the bathroom, you nearly forget to wrap up your leg again.
  94. 94.
    “Idiot, I can’t believe I nearly did that.”
  95. 95.
    >You quickly wrap it up and look it over.
  96. 96.
    >Feeling satisfied, you put on your hoodie and head out to the other room.
  97. 97.
    >Connie’s music echos from the living room, it soothes you a little.
  98. 98.
    “At least I have that...”
  99. 99.
    >Slowly you trot to the living room, and see them both were they where yesterday.
  100. 100.
    >For a while, you stand there in the entrance, just listening to the music.
  101. 101.
    >It’s beautiful.
  102. 102.
    >Makes you wish you could play an instrument, but you always sucked.
  103. 103.
    >All you have is a talent that no pony can enjoy, least of all yourself.
  104. 104.
    >A cold feeling enters your heart, and your eyes start to moisten.
  105. 105.
    >You close them in an attempt to hold back the tears, but a few tears fall to the floor.
  106. 106.
    >Taking a few steps back, you don’t want either of them to see you like this.
  107. 107.
    >You can’t hold back much longer, so you retreat to the bedroom to let it out.
  108. 108.
    >The moment you reach the bed, you bury your head in a pillow and softly cry.
  109. 109.
    >Rest even told you that you could open up to either of them, but here you are, alone and crying.
  110. 110.
     
  111. 111.
    >But you know why you’re not, you don’t want them to see you suffer nor do you want them change today’s plans.
  112. 112.
    >Just suffer alone...For them…
  113. 113.
    >Eventually your tears dry up, and you pull away from the pillow.
  114. 114.
    >Your voice is barely a whisper now.
  115. 115.
    “S-so s-stupid...”
  116. 116.
    >You rub your eyes and head to the bathroom to see if you can hide the disgrace marking your face.
  117. 117.
    >Looking into the mirror reveals your eyes are bloodshot and puffy.
  118. 118.
    >’How do you intend to hide this one?’
  119. 119.
    “I’ll figure it out.”
  120. 120.
    >’You can’t expect them to not see it.’
  121. 121.
    “J-just leave me alone...”
  122. 122.
    >You turn on the facet and splash some cold water on your face.
  123. 123.
    >It helps freshen you up a little, but you’re going to have to wait it out for your eyes to clear up.
  124. 124.
    >So you sit in the bathroom and trace a hoof over the other leg’s scars.
  125. 125.
    “Don’t remember most of these...”
  126. 126.
    >Many you did while falling apart, even got close to cutting too deep far too many times.
  127. 127.
    >Some like yesterday, were in a bathroom.
  128. 128.
    >A sudden knocking causes you to jump.
  129. 129.
    >”How long are you going to be?”
  130. 130.
    >Of course it’s Rest…
  131. 131.
    “Just a few more minutes!”
  132. 132.
    >You give yourself a once over in the mirror and hope for the best.
  133. 133.
    >Thankfully your eyes are mostly cleared up.
  134. 134.
    >You flush the toilet and run the sink for a minute before turning it off.
  135. 135.
    >Opening the door you give Rest a fake smile and head to the living room.
  136. 136.
    >Connie is looking over some music sheets again.
  137. 137.
    “H-hey, how’s it going?”
  138. 138.
    >She beams and turns her attention to you.
  139. 139.
    >>”Pretty good actually, I’d say practice went well, how about yourself?”
  140. 140.
    >’Yeah, how about it Eri?’
  141. 141.
    >Still wearing the same fake smile, you answer her.
  142. 142.
    “I’m doing alright, little nervous about today.”
  143. 143.
    >Connie nods and motions for you to sit, which you do.
  144. 144.
    >>”It’s okay to be nervous, just remember we will be right there with you. I’m certain you will like what the museum has to the offer.”
  145. 145.
    >Hopefully she’s right.
  146. 146.
     
  147. 147.
    “Yeah, I’m sure I will get through it.”
  148. 148.
    >She nods and starts to put away her things.
  149. 149.
    >>”Suppose I should get ready as well, be right back.”
  150. 150.
    >You nod and watch her leave.
  151. 151.
    >While your anxiety settles, your mind wanders.
  152. 152.
    >’Do you think you will actually enjoy going to a museum?’
  153. 153.
    >Haven’t been to one since I was little, so maybe I’ll appreciate it more.
  154. 154.
    >’At least with the theater you couldn’t see the other ponies, but now you will be surrounded in broad daylight.’
  155. 155.
    >I can handle this.
  156. 156.
    >’Maybe you will, maybe you won’t. With your track record though...’
  157. 157.
    “I said I will handle this.”
  158. 158.
    >”Who are you talking to Eri?”
  159. 159.
    >Freezing up, you see Rest looking confused.
  160. 160.
    >Your embarrassment skyrockets and you stumble out a response.
  161. 161.
    “I-um...I-I...M-myself! I was talking to myself.”
  162. 162.
    >Sure it’s the truth, but do you honestly think she will buy that?
  163. 163.
    >”Okay, do you want to talk? I know you tend to talk to yourself when you get worked up.”
  164. 164.
    >Forgot she knew that, don’t need to say everything though.
  165. 165.
    “J-just stress that’s all. Still working my way through all of this. Don’t worry though, I haven’t forgotten what either of you have said.”
  166. 166.
    >She smiles and nods.
  167. 167.
    >”I can imagine, you’re doing really well so far.”
  168. 168.
    >’Holy shit, she actually bought that?’
  169. 169.
    >Just fuck off.
  170. 170.
    “You think so? Maybe this is all working out then.”
  171. 171.
    >’Or maybe you’re on a path to collapse, again.’
  172. 172.
    >I can try dammit.
  173. 173.
    >”Yes I do, you’ve taken another step towards getting better.”
  174. 174.
    >Maybe you are getting better.
  175. 175.
    >’We’ll see about that.’
  176. 176.
    >Ignoring that thought, you stand up, feeling a little more renewed.
  177. 177.
    >Connie trots back into the living room looking quite pleased.
  178. 178.
    >>”Alright, lets get going, I’m really excited to visit the museum again. I usually feel inspired after I go there.”
  179. 179.
    >The three of you leave the apartment and like yesterday, Connie hails a taxi.
  180. 180.
    >Though this time, you try to stay focused.
  181. 181.
     
  182. 182.
    >Just remember Eri, do it for them.
  183. 183.
    >A taxi pulls up and you climb in, you decide to try to chat with the other two this time.
  184. 184.
    “From the sounds of things, you’ve been to the museum a lot?”
  185. 185.
    >Connie nods.
  186. 186.
    >>”Yes, it’s nice to see what history is contained within. Really puts a whole perspective on everything.”
  187. 187.
    >”I can imagine a city like this has a lot of history, though I don’t know much about Manehattan.”
  188. 188.
    >>”It’s not just on Manehattan, there is stuff on the history of Equestria and much more.”
  189. 189.
    >Would be nice if you could share their enthusiasm, maybe you will when you see it all.
  190. 190.
    >While you wouldn’t mind adding more to the conversation, you start to zone out.
  191. 191.
    >’Giving up again?’
  192. 192.
    >They understand, not like they expect me to be as talkative.
  193. 193.
    >’Do you honestly believe that? They would probably like it more if you actually talked instead of being a fucking wall.’
  194. 194.
    >Die in a fire.
  195. 195.
    >The taxi pulls up to a huge concrete building adorned with statues and pillars.
  196. 196.
    >Guess this is the museum.
  197. 197.
    >Connie and Rest get out of the taxi with you joining them.
  198. 198.
    >As you all trot up to the building, you’re starting to feel overwhelmed
  199. 199.
    >This place feels really imposing.
  200. 200.
    >Damn anxiety is trying to dissuade you again.
  201. 201.
    >Gritting your teeth, you continue to follow them and watch as Connie talks to a mare who probably is in charge of tours.
  202. 202.
    >You look around in the meantime, this place has high ceilings and banners.
  203. 203.
    >Of course there is a fuck ton of ponies around, and slowly you feel yourself start to shake.
  204. 204.
    >Not because you’re cold, but because you’re so damn afraid.
  205. 205.
    >For fucks sake, just hold on Eri, you can do this.
  206. 206.
    >You pulse rises and with it, so does your breathing.
  207. 207.
    >Come on you piece of trash, don’t give in, please for the love of Celestia, don’t give in…
  208. 208.
    >>”We made it just in time for the next tour.”
  209. 209.
    >Snapping out of it, you see Connie smiling and looking at you two.
  210. 210.
     
  211. 211.
    >Thank fuck…
  212. 212.
    >You slowly calm down and follow Connie as she leads you over to a group.
  213. 213.
    >A guide grabs the attention of the whole group.
  214. 214.
    >>>”Alright everypony, we are about to begin our journey through the museum. I ask that you wait to ask questions till after I explain each exhibit and to stay together. We don’t want anypony to get lost after all. Is everypony ready then?”
  215. 215.
    >A collective agreement goes out from the group.
  216. 216.
    >She smiles and starts to lead the group to one of the wings of the museum.
  217. 217.
    >>>”Starting off with Manehattan, it was founded shortly after the unification of the three tribes. This was necessary...”
  218. 218.
    >Slowly, you tune her out and look at the many exhibits around the room.
  219. 219.
    >There are many pictures and even some old things from when the city was founded.
  220. 220.
    >You feel yourself start to relax as you distract yourself.
  221. 221.
    >The guide starts to move with the group again and you follow along once more.
  222. 222.
    >This section has various fossils, skeletons, and all other kinds of stuff.
  223. 223.
    >Of course you zone in on the skeletons, they looks pretty cool.
  224. 224.
    >One of which is labeled Modern Equus.
  225. 225.
    “Huh, so that’s what is inside of me. Spooky.”
  226. 226.
    >”It’s pretty rad.”
  227. 227.
    >You jump and notice Rest is looking at the skeleton with you.
  228. 228.
    >She realizes this and smirks.
  229. 229.
    >”Jumpy?”
  230. 230.
    “Fuck, you scared me.”
  231. 231.
    >She giggles.
  232. 232.
    >”Didn’t mean to, but I’m happy to see you interested.”
  233. 233.
    >>”Come on you two, we can’t fall behind.”
  234. 234.
    >You both look to see Connie waving to the moving group.
  235. 235.
    >”Be right with you.”
  236. 236.
    >Nodding, you both quickly rejoin the group.
  237. 237.
    >Looks like the next area is dedicated to Equestion history in general.
  238. 238.
    >Sure you learned that in school and you forgot most of it, but it’s kinda nice to remember.
  239. 239.
    >As the tour guide talks, you look around again.
  240. 240.
    >’Can’t pay attention, can you?’
  241. 241.
    >I can, just rather look is all.
  242. 242.
     
  243. 243.
    >’You were the same way when you were a filly, guess you didn’t change at all.’
  244. 244.
    >That’s not true, I’m not a damn filly anymore.
  245. 245.
    >’Doesn’t stop you from breaking down and crying like one.’
  246. 246.
    >It’s not like I want to!
  247. 247.
    >’That’s real rich. ALL of your problems are from being an attention whore.’
  248. 248.
    >Shut the fuck up!
  249. 249.
    >’Truth hurts, don’t it Eri? Then again, that’s not the only thing that hurts, you hurt yourself.’
  250. 250.
    >You shut your eyes tightly as tears threaten to emerge.
  251. 251.
    >I am getting better, regardless of what you think.
  252. 252.
    >’You mean what you think. I am a random thought in YOUR head, YOUR thoughts at that.’
  253. 253.
    >I-I need to find Rest and Connie.
  254. 254.
    >As you open your eyes, you don’t see the group.
  255. 255.
    >Your eyes widen as you realize you’re alone.
  256. 256.
    “No, no, no, no...I-I can find them...Just focus like they told you.”
  257. 257.
    >Quickly, you start to look for them.
  258. 258.
    >As you enter the next room, you see them quickly rush to you.
  259. 259.
    >”There you are!”
  260. 260.
    >>”Are you alright?”
  261. 261.
    “Yeah I’m fine, just got distracted is all.”
  262. 262.
    >”Are you sure about that? You don’t look alright.”
  263. 263.
    >You probably look awful.
  264. 264.
    “I just...I had a minor incident, that’s all.”
  265. 265.
    >They don’t look that convinced.
  266. 266.
    >>”How about we just...Finish this up and get going?”
  267. 267.
    >Connie looks to Rest who nods.
  268. 268.
    >’Fantastic Eri, you ruined the whole tour.’
  269. 269.
    >You say nothing and follow them while looking downwards.
  270. 270.
    >Though they talk and try to include you, you just nod or shake your head instead of talking.
  271. 271.
    >The tour finishes up and you leave them with, feeling worse.
  272. 272.
    >Even the ride back to the apartment, you remain silent.
  273. 273.
    >When you get back, you skip out on dinner and just head back to the bedroom.
  274. 274.
    “...Idiot...Couldn’t stay normal for one day...No...”
  275. 275.
    >Tears fall freely as you reach the bed and collapse on it.
  276. 276.
    >Slowly, you fall asleep crying.

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